Trees on Instagram

 I like my space

Emotionally 

anyway...

 

I enjoy regulating myself, believe it or not 

That’s why I don’t always know what to share 

I know the other people care about me 

But I don’t want anyone too close 

not really 

Don’t want anyone feeding off of drama 

(Believe me, there’s enough of it)

I know you’ve got your own 

(Probably you're stuffed with it) 

The way that overeating is culturally acceptable now

To overshare can make you an influencer somehow

Of course, everybody just wants someone to relate to 

And we all wanna feel we’re not the only ones going through -

Feeling So Messed Up 

Somehow it’s comforting to think that the bad stuff is just normal 

And honestly, if I still had a cat, I’d post his picture every other slide too 

So if I stopped posting 

its not because everything’s great or everything‘s terrible   

It’s just 

my family picture now includes my ex

And I never call him X

I just call him by his name 

He deserves that much

And when we celebrated my son today

(who just turned 16 )

He, like all my teens

    See a camera coming and

        Put on their sunglasses on

            A hand in front of the lens

                    Their hoodies up

                        Hide in their rooms 

Sometimes it’s all a bit too much

He went to his party and had fun

But came home throwing up

I didn’t post a photo of my new boyfriend

Because even though he is great

We are not adjusted yet 

And sometimes what we hope will be permanent turns out a different way 

Though life is short 

It still pays to take your time 

So that’s why you’re still gonna get pictures of trees on Instagram 

Lydiangeline 

3.1.2025