Life Review

Should you ask yourself if you are to blame?

You will anyway.

Should you ask yourself if there was something you could have done?

You will anyway.

Should you berate yourself? Search for clues? Try to make sense?

You will …

Could you blame him?

Could you blame her?

Yourself?

Them?

You will anyway.

Could you blame God?

You will ...

And this too shall pass. 

Would it make a difference if? 

Would something come along to make it worth it all?

Even out the scales

Like - because he lived 

and met so and so 

and did such and such 

his death would be worth it.

All that effort 

to give and to raise up

To teach and to hold up

Then gone!

So young

Too young

It wasn't supposed to be at 23

At 37

At 63

It's not right

It cannot have been by design

Go over it 

Review

the pictures

the moments

the lights

the darks

Looking for something to learn that is not 

pain 

bitterness 

hardness 

loss

Go over it

You don't need a fine-tooth comb

It is all there

Take your time 

And longer

Linger

There's no rush

Obituaries don't say much

Could you start over then?

He will anyway. 

Lydiangeline 2.29.2024

In memory of S. F., gone too soon.

Photo by John Moeses Bauan on Unsplash